Suck It Up!!!

ok. moving back (or perhaps, forward? heehee..) from most recent events to the morning..

was just at shogun & linestepper's for a break before i went home. it's so nice to spend time out on someone's patio and feel like i'm at home. in good company. we shared some good laughs over artistic blogging. haha ronin. just wait. you'll see. haha. got a good one rolling around in this warped mind. haha. it's really funny.

pulled a funny on the bowling team tonight. unfortunately it didn't go as planned. but really good laughs were aplenty, and i was touched (emotionally, that is.) when ronin exclaimed that he wanted to take his cans home. i wish i could've heard what hot fudge had to say. i love to hear her laugh. it's one of those laughs that makes me want to be even sillier, just to hear it again. Hey!! that reminds me! i need to get her a bottle of plum wine.. gotta keep workin' on the recipe.. : )

there's a rumbling in my tummy.. (pooh bear in "winnie the pooh and the hundred acre wood") ate a bean & cheese burrito in under ten minutes while in a hurry to get home before i went to school. sometimes i marvel at my multi-tasking abilities. i ate the last bit as i was driving, talking on the phone, and smoking.

had a practical discussion with a friend about getting my life together. the more i talk about it with her, the more i feel like it is finally sinking into my mushy CPU.

hamster cage from hell cleanup at the crack of dawn.. gotta let this one go, or i'll lose it for sure..

when all else fails, listen to fabio. it's simply not possible to listen to him and not crack up.

career choice of the day: inventor. and not just any inventor. one that makes furnace venting made out of a special metal that doesn't expand or contract with heat, and therefore not freaking out single, over-imaginative women into thinking something is crawling around in the vents everytime the heat turns on.

high:

• EVERY morning my boys give the sweetest hugs and kisses when they get out the car. even when they're running late. even when they want to go hang out with their friends. even when they're mad at me. even if i don't ask.
• this kid at mickey d's was so nice to me this morning, and i was totally not expecting it. i had a good look at him from the side before he gave me my food, and had stereotyped him as a dumb ass kid with tats out in the boonies.. nice to be reminded that i shouldn't judge.
• got taxes practically actically done!!! boo yeah!
• got a good grade on a test in a subject i love to talk about, but hate to think about.

low:

• smoking too much this week. really truly think this'll be my last week. for health reasons.
• this kid at mickey d's was so nice to me this morning, and i was totally not expecting it. i had a good look at him from the side before he gave me my food, and had stereotyped him as a dumb ass kid with tats out in the boonies.. nice to be reminded that i shouldn't judge.
• my older daughter was so happy that i had cleaned her hamster's cage for her. then she looked at me with the saddest eyes and said "now i know why you don't have time for other things, mama. you're so busy taking of us." i told her she was worth every last second of every last chore in the world. and she smiled. and i could tell she was still worried about me.

no, i did not accidentally put high and low the same. it makes me happy that i was able to see his friendliness, but also sad that i thought low of someone i didn't even know. hmm. maybe i should send him an apology card or something. haha.

today i spied:

• a piece of light-colored painted plywood (1.5 ft X 1.5 ft) on the freeway, in my exit lane. the interesting thing about this particular piece of wood is that for about the past week, i keep driving over it because it is in the left side of the lane, and so my left tires go right over it. and i always try to remember, but i never do, until i see it right in front of me, and by then it's too late to swerve, so i've been going over it every time i've taken that exit for the past week... i dunno, maybe 8 or 9 times? i've looked at it so much, i've got images of the growing crack down the middle etched on my brain.. let's see what happens tomorrow.
• genuine service.
• a reminder (receipt!) to go to fudrucker's with some good friends to celebrate the beginning of a real estate roller coater ride that eventually brought us all closer to each other a year ago. close enough to klonk our noggins together and see stars. My treat! Hey!!! we should all order the same stuff we got last time!
• an inflated tire around my waist. wtf? how did that get there?
• a number nine that keeps looking like a number six to me.
• total temptation. the freakin' avocados over the fence are calling to me, i swear. i don't have the balls to ask the owners if i can pick some, and there's something about the mental images of climbing the fence and snagging one or two or ten that is so appealing to me.
• two staple pullers. now why the hell do i have two? they look like a rodent with its jaws fully opened, possibly in a yawn or something.
• and a partridge in a pear tree... (i had more periods, but remembered to stick to three..)